Leaning into the Mystery
As my relationship with the Universal Intelligence, as I call it, or Source, grows stronger and stronger, I continue to realize how paradoxically small and yet significant I am—we all are. Our small selves want so much to control things and figure them out. Yet, the more I practice showing up and releasing my will to the breeze of the great Mystery, the more significantly I can impact my reality.
My favorite sandals were stolen last week at a lovely spa I visited while on vacation. The person who took them insisted they were hers. As I watched her walk out in my shoes, I didn’t want to make a scene and instead leaned into the acceptance that this was her karma to live out.
As it turned out, it was also my karma to live out. These sandals were sacred to me. They could have been any other pair of shoes and I wouldn’t have cared so much. What I realized as I reflected upon this experience is that I too often lean into the Mystery when it’s convenient for me because I’m afraid to stand up for what I know to be true, or to experience a loss of something sacred to me. In the past, I’ve allowed other “sacred” experiences be reduced to something less significant because of my willingness to accept, or because my fear of being inappropriate or hurt. In this case, I allowed leaning on the Mystery to be a crutch, and I realized a profound difference between leaning on the Mystery and leaning into the Mystery. I did let this woman walk away with my sandals, and in fact leaned on the Mystery rather than trusting my heartfelt conviction that this was not okay.
In trusting the Mystery and turning our experience over to it, we must not allow ourselves and our Truth be trampled in the process. Only when there’s alignment of personal Truth and being unattached to outcome can the healing and the magic begin. Otherwise the machinations of our desire to control look like Oz behind the curtain, and we live in a world in which we don’t truly understand our own significance in relationship to the Mystery.
Lean into, not on, and let go . . .